THE SMILE THAT DIDN’T REACH THE EYES

I looked at the picture
I saw something amiss
I paused and I discovered
It was the smile that didn't reach the eyes

I searched high and low
For that magic that is lost
There was no more inner glow
It was the smile that didn't reach the eyes

I spoke straight from the heart
Reaching the inner soul
Something was wrong from the start
It was the smile that didn't reach the eyes

I touched that beautiful face
Reaching for a comforting warmth
I recoiled at the cold embrace
It was the smile that didn't reach the eyes

I uttered a silent prayer
And braved the coming storm
I flinched at that cold eerie laughter
Coming from the smile that didn't reach the eyes

I sat in momentary silence
Contemplating what next to do
For the smile that didn't reach the eyes
Have claimed everything that once was you

TOP 11 BEST EXCUSES TO AVOID GIVING DUIT RAYA

11 days on and we are still very much in the festive spirit. So I guess its not too late for me to wish everyone a Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Kain Batik Zahir Batin. :P

Now, if your father is not Daim Zainuddin Bill Gates or if your name does not begin with Khairy and ends with Jamaluddin , I am most certain that you would've started to feel a grave economic pinch on your pockets from the shopping raya tak sedar diri expenses incurred in preparation of raya. Having said that, giving duit raya is perhaps the most unnecessary of such expenses as you are required to part with your money for a bunch of pesky random children. As such, I have compiled a list of legitimate excuses reasons that you can use on little children (and their parents) to avoid giving them duit raya..Especially now that we are broke and raya is still another 19 days to go.

1. I just came back from overseas and only carry Indon and Bangladeshi currencies... which I am sure would be of no use to you
   
   
2. A mercun roket flew into my window and burnt all of the packets containing your duit raya
   
   
3. I don't carry cash.. only credit cards
   
   
4. The dog ate your homework duit raya
   
   
5. The bag containing duit raya fell into the kuali dodol while I was showing off my skills to anak Makcik Kiah next door diligently helping out with the dodol making process
   
   
6. I bet all that money on whether Siti Nurhaliza is coming to our house for raya and lost
   
   
7. I will give you duit raya ONLY if you can run around the field while singing Dendang Perantau backwards at the top of your lungs
   
   
8. My ringgit bills are marked and the Italian Mafias are tracing it. I don't want you to get hurt
   
   
9. I'm not old enough to give duit raya..in fact you should be giving me some
   
   
10. I suffer a violent ancient curse that will make me hyperventilate and scream obscenities in Russian each time I give money to little children
    
    
11. You don't have a cute elder sister or brother that I can impress

SOLITARY...

Today I sit in solitary
Not knowing next where I will be
The path behind is filled with misery
The way ahead looks so dark and bleary

Today I sit here all alone
Not having a place to call my own
The past I thought was buried and gone
Resides in my heart and now it haunts

Today I sit in this confusion
Failing to chase away all the demons
My life was once filled with so much passion
They took it away and left me broken

Today I sit lost in my soul
Having reneged all form of control
Once before I was so bold
Now I'm just... so numb and cold

Today I sit without a clue
Not even an inkling of what to do
Never again will I believe in you
You've disgraced everything that I once held true..

TOP 10 THINGS THAT MAKES ME HAPPY

1) Having my private moments with God where I'm assured of His undivided attention for 5 to 10 mins, 5 times a day

2) Gossiping on the phone with Kim for hours like we are still teenagers

3) Forgiveness from my dad and realising that he is a pretty cool chap after all

4) My mom's smile

5) A hug from Izzurin.. a kiss from Haikal.. a chill out moment with Izzul

6) Long Facebook essays from one of the wittiest guys I have ever met

7) My car..

8) This blog

9) Finally getting the killer moves in belly dancing

10) The pristine smell and feel of a brand new book that I have been dying to read

*Note : the above is listed in no particular order.. it is called incoherent ramblings after all..:P

CLUBBING 101

Rina's guide to a nocturnal life of fun and adventure!!

Over the last 6 months or so..I have become an avid clubber of sorts.. swaggering in and out of clubs (posh or otherwise) faster than you can say "Hilang mana pompuan gedik nih.." "What's your plan Saturday night?" Given my vast experience on the subject matter, I feel compelled to share with you my favourite sacred list of "observations" that will guarantee you a night of fun and adventure!! Enjoy!

1. Hotness – refers to your sensuality and desirability ratings to members of the opposite (and in some instances/clubs similar) sex..NOT your average body temperature and sweating capacity
   
   
2. ID – being asked for one when you are obviously above 21 is an insult..being asked for one when you are obviously above 21 (but not so obviously) and above 25 is a compliment!!
   

   
   

3. Rubbing your crotch against a chic's back on the dance floor is neither sexy nor seductive and WILL NOT get you laid :P
   
   
4. If a huge tray of shots seemed to have mysteriously appeared on your table.. chances are your mate BOUGHT them
   
   
5. No matter how hard u try to work it, a bright red boob tube on a huge pot belly coupled with a purple floral pleated skirt with ruffles and a laced- up black and white wedges IS NOT FASHIONABLE!!
   
   
6. NO.. you do not have to wear Kesatria Baja Hitam Paris Hilton-styled shades in a club..the place was darkened and filled with bright blinking lights for a reason.. :P
   
   
7. Unbuttoning a guy's shirt after meeting him for two seconds just because he is German..is NOT cool!! And never will be..
   
   
8. If you suddenly discovered that the turntablist of the night is your friend..it is polite to stick around and pretend to enjoy at least a couple of sets..no matter how crappy unsuitable the music is for you
   
   
9. Having the lead singer of a band single you out for a dance -VERY FLATTERING
   

   Having the same lead singer later approach your table, buys you a drink and tells you that you bear an uncanny resemblance to his dead ex girlfriend in a thick Indonesian buruh kontrak accent -NOT FLATTERING AT ALL!!

10. Galliano Shots – avoid at ALL cost! Failure to take heed may result in temporary amnesia, severe loss of coordination, total shut down of bodily functions, lack of emotional control, lavatory-induced slumber spells and waking up in the deserted home of a mid-thirties widower..